I have some chat mates recenly.
One of them is a man from Mexico who lives in Japan for over 30 years.

Last night,  he said my question of him was rude and I was mo..something.
Mo,, means I am so interested in some negative aspects like illness or diseases.

I was quite shocked. I never intended to be rude.
Okay, I might be rude, but as my age, it will not be changed.
I don't want to annoy him anymore, and I don't want to be hurt anymore.

He wrote what he felt one by one and finished with good night without asking me my feeling.
This morning, as I expected he wrote me, " Good morning."
as if nothing happened.
I am bored with men's such behabior, and I replied "おはようございます。”
since he can understand and write Japanese.

Then, no reply until now.
Okay let him go.

It has become hassle.

I rethought.
Maybe, my unpoliteness comes from my age.
People around me, mostly women, are around my age, and
they have experienced some incidents like familis' death, illness.
We don't have hesitate to talk about anything. 
The reason why I broke my leg, or why my father passed away
is not such big personal affairs.
If you do not want to tell me the reason of such thing, you must not tell about them first.

Yeah, I definitely did gardening too much.
I know it, but my elbow easily started to hurt.

Tennis elbow...

I used to play it eagerly, indeed,
but now I don't do any more.

hmmmm

My chat friend living in Trinidado and Tobago told me about 1 week ago that
he was thrown away from his friend's room because they had argument.
His financial situation got terrible during COVID-19 pandemic and he couldn't afford to
 pay his rent so he asked the friend to allow him to stay with him/or her( the friend).
He should have been patient about the friend.
He spent a few nights in his car, but now luckily he can stay with another friend.

The world is wide.

Using matching app has both benefits and drawbacks. 
Today, I write about its benefits.

The first app I used was only for people using English.
Mainly Americans are using it.
So all of the guys I matched were foreigners.

First of all, most of them are straightforward.
They ask me what they want to know.
It is very easy to talk with them.

Also, once we like each other,
they are very kind and give me compliments, like
Your smile is nice,  I like your voice, and so on.

These kinds of words gave me self confidence and satisfaction.

I fell in love with one guy.
( It's broken up already)
I've come to care about my clothes, makeup, and accessory even though we were far 
from each other and met just only twice.

Now, I have been chatting with some foreigners and they always give me 
happiness, tenderness, excitment.
Thanks to them, I can forget my age and enjoy my life fully.