みようみまねで

I get tired easily these days.

It's rainy.

Japanese language has various kinds of expression of rain.
五月雨　　豪雨　　霧雨　　
or onomatope used to express such rain
しとしと　ざーざー　

I told an Isareal guy about such thing about wave
さざ波　
and various kinds of colors "red"

He was impressed and wanted to learn Japanese.

I love Japanese language.

As I expected, the one who said I was rude
haven't texted for two days.
He is sure to have left me.  That's okay.  I don't care.
I don't want to be hurt anymore.

The another guy, who asked me how long I have been using such app
and how many men I have met, is staying.
I don't think I need to answer such question.

What will he do with my answer?
If my answer were what he likes,   he would be suspicious, anyway.
If my answer were what he hates,  he would leave me.

He will leave anyway.
So, don't ask such silly question when you use matching app.

I have some chat mates recenly.
One of them is a man from Mexico who lives in Japan for over 30 years.

Last night,  he said my question of him was rude and I was mo..something.
Mo,, means I am so interested in some negative aspects like illness or diseases.

I was quite shocked. I never intended to be rude.
Okay, I might be rude, but as my age, it will not be changed.
I don't want to annoy him anymore, and I don't want to be hurt anymore.

He wrote what he felt one by one and finished with good night without asking me my feeling.
This morning, as I expected he wrote me, " Good morning."
as if nothing happened.
I am bored with men's such behabior, and I replied "おはようございます。”
since he can understand and write Japanese.

Then, no reply until now.
Okay let him go.

It has become hassle.

I rethought.
Maybe, my unpoliteness comes from my age.
People around me, mostly women, are around my age, and
they have experienced some incidents like familis' death, illness.
We don't have hesitate to talk about anything. 
The reason why I broke my leg, or why my father passed away
is not such big personal affairs.
If you do not want to tell me the reason of such thing, you must not tell about them first.